A bruise is softly tender
but never will it last,
it leaves me as
I always was.
But a wound I take
much more to heart,
for a scar will always
leave its mark.
And if you should ask me
which you are,
my answer is—
you are a scar.
But the scar that you are
is not what I regret,
you are someone
I can't possibly forget.
With it not yet being said
my love for you will
remain as always
and will never be dead.
I wish you nothing but
happiness and luck,
while wishing my life
without wouldn't suck.
If life gives you a lemonade, make some lemons and life will be like “whuttt????”
16
It's 2am and I'm wide awake with the question “What does it matter if we’re a country of laws if the laws aren’t just?” echoing through my mind, a question that I can't seem to find answer to, I've become obsessed and sleep derived, trying so deeply to understand why it is what it is and what answers lies out in the world for that certain question. I try and I try.
16
On days that I wake up when my name is a euphemism for anxiety, depression, or what the hell ever there is there, i go forward with drinking coffee with mountain dew on the side of the house so that nobody sees me while I talk to the imaginary people I've made up in my mind, trying to comfort myself about the fact that I don't actually have friends, i try to smile, laugh, but they all see me as someone crazy, it's exhausting.
15
I keep on asking “what goes on inside my head?” those voices lost and pages very much dead. My mind slightly consumed and possessed by my own unmade books, those unwritten lines of “fuck you and fuck me too”.
15
I found a new obsession which is loving middle-aged women, starting with Christine Baranski. It was this time when I began to question my sexuality, everything was being thrown at me, this picture of her, that picture of her, and also Sandra Oh, I began to be so confused!!!
15
I found therapy on watching American sitcoms and somehow I feel great whenever I watch “Friends” or “The Big Bang Theory”, cause they became a part of me and I began to fantasize that their friends were my friends too. I know, I'm pathetic.
14
My mom tells me it's better to be alone, not love a man, don't look for a man, don't ever trust a man, cause a man can hurt you in so many ways and still not feel sorry about it. Which kinda takes me back to Mamma Mia 2, when Tanya said “It's terribly important to remember just what terrible people all men are.” which if you ask me is by far the most iconic quote of the entire sequel.
14
My mother says the word “divorce”, her mouth curls at the taste like it burns going down, my siblings starts breaking down, I do not cry.
13
I'm here shrinking in the corner pressed up into the wall, do you know that I'm present or that I'm just right here and all?? Do you have any idea or just to know what it's like to be lying in bed awake with thoughts that haunt you whether its day or night, it's hard, it's killing me. GOD JUST TAKE ME AWAY!!!
13
My parents had a very heated argument that led to a physical fight, I was screaming, trying so hard to stop them, I was crying so hard, but at the same time trying to comfort my siblings, cause out of all of us, it's hurts more for them than for us.
12
“Mommy Gie! Mommy Gie!” I cried for my grandmother “take me away from here” I cried at 2am, looking for the only person that actually cared for me.
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I start to wonder why I ever fell apart from my dad, we used to be so close to each other.
6
I saw dada hurt mama.
5
I think it was this time my dad got into an accident, he was driving his motor while asleep and got hit by a drunk driver.
4
3
I keep on looking for dada, all day long, all I want is to be next to him, even though I'm scared of his pet snake and iguana.
2
1
i was about my couple or few months old
my first word was dada.
0
My parents had a wonderful love experience, until they found out about me, they became a somewhat teenage couple that was forced into marriage because of me. I somewhat think it's my fault for being born, I feel sorry that they felt horny that night which then led to this gorgeous mess of a mistake in front of all of you now.
